End of an era

Having declined in health rather drastically I find myself in the position where I am no longer fit to work in the fast paced environment that I have come to love, my kitchen. I can no longer stand for periods of time unaided, my muscles spasm uncontrollably throughout my entire body, nerve damage has rendered my steady hands to quivering wrecks, I have BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) both introverted and extroverted variations and my hearing has rapidly deteriorated. Devastated hardly seems to do justice to how I feel, my mind takes me to every spectrum of thought focusing on the best and worst outcomes all at once. "What do I do now?" "How will I support my family?" "how will I be able to look after my daughter?" "Would it be better all round to just end it now and not be a burden?" The list of these questions are endless, but one could also say that so are the solutions.
There is very little likelihood that I will be fortunate enough to rejoin the hustle and bustle of the restaurant kitchens, but that does not mean that my passion and enthusiasm towards food must dwindle along with my mental and physical state. I still design menus, I still create dishes and experiment with flavours, textures, scents and sounds. I will always be a chef, no matter my physical or mental state, I worked hard to work my way up the ranks and develop my skills.
To embrace what has happened to me and make the most of modern technology to further my passion is the best option for myself and my family, especially my daughter. My mother always used to say "onward and upwards", something I too say as a sort of mantra on a daily basis, along with "there is always someone worse off elsewhere", guess I learned more than my passion for cookery from that amazing woman.
I now find myself starting this Blog to share my experiences, tips, recipes as well as reviews and anything relating to the culinary arts.
I will also endeavor to answer any questions or help out with any kitchen faux pas so feel free to get in touch.